Where which i am

Every things are fine here:

The dust in the eyes, the bone in throat.

When I participated in its test, the test was passed successfully by me unfortunately, it was the winter of 1389. It was praising by everyone; its dormitory, its teachers, the teaching method which was running there and its atmosphere which it had were praising. Actually on those years it was such place.

The total of its students were about 250 person, namely the acceptance was lower and they could assist not only in teaching, but also they could support and assist the dormitory as well.

By the end of 1389, the [takhnik sanawi high school] which was written in its billboard, gave its place to [afghan institute of technology].

That was the start of downfall in teaching and dormitory`s quality. In 1390 the institute was supposed to accept about 1000 person as new students in New Year, which were a big digit. Managing and sponsoring that number of students were a big problem for DMTVET. That was a mistake which was happened by management of AIT and DMTVET.

By starting of 1390, my new life was also starting slowly; getting out from my simply, honestly and happy life and entering in an atmosphere full of prejudice, enmity, violence and fraud.

Me and my friends` life were affected by these points, the prejudicing was as honor, the enmity was the sign of chivalry, the violence was normal and fraud was the main principal of life.

It was 1390, which for the first time I was seeing the destiny of youth being played by the name of religion and tribe. It was 1390 when I knew the corruption as reason of being permanent in an office.

I was in 10 grade, first semester and I was trying hardly to achieve best score and catch my favorite field (architecture). Maybe the ayatulkursee surah was reading by me 10 time after every daily pray, maybe more than 10. Finally I achieve 89% and was joined in architecture department. The standard score was 86%. The second semester of tenth grade was started and I go to class, but I do not find the class which I suppose. The majority of my classmates` average was 10 percent below the standard, which we call them as [parachute`s person], namely the person which is coming to a place by parachute. The lessons and chapters was easier than first semester, not by their level, but also from this aspect that teacher have been lazier, and the students was not trying enough. Everyone was reached to their goals which was succeeding in architecture field. And it was enough on that time.

In dormitory:

As a new person which is coming from an individual and personal atmosphere, into a social society/atmosphere like dormitory; I was blest/lucky. Two of my cousins were studying there at 11 grade, and they support me, namely the pick me up into their room, my roommates were from my homeland [ghazni], majority of them from malistan. They were conducting with me not as a new person, but as a brother. We can feel better the being newcomer by watching [the prison break]. Oh, it should be mentioned that all of us were watching the prison break every night. Our room was the happiest, noisy, and was the best room in third block. 12 person were living in a room which had capacity for 8 person.

The 1391 comes, but our chapters were not changed. We print and read the same chapters which were getting fired in the past year. The only things which were changed were, the school books (Islamic science, Dari, Pashtu…) even our teachers were not changed. Without thee technical drawing and map drawing, still we have studied just the history of architecture not itself. We would face (what is architecture? And who are architect?) Title, instead of studying designing and so on…

We would have passed the 1392 also like this. The chapters were the same as last year`s chapters, just their names were changed. Our teachers were those teachers, that we have made for them destak door as practical work, not as bribe.

But, in dormitory has come a lot of changes, in 1390 we were about 500 students totally in dormitory; the complex of dormitory has made by three blocks each of them in two floor, every floor has fourteen rooms with six toilets and six bathroom. But in 1392, about 750 students were living in dormitory. The toilets and bathrooms which are inside of buildings were closed. Instead of them they built eight toilets with two bathroom outside of the blocks. (Although four or five of them were closed often). The dormitory and students condition were like (sona) jail in (prison break).

In 1393, I was in 13 grade but nothing was changed, not teaching chapters, nor teachers, not dormitory`s condition, nothing…

I was in dormitory for two months of 1393, but the condition were unbearable. Rioting, looting, corruption, prejudice and the food were worst than before. Cause of this I was getting off from dormitory, by getting out form dormitory nothing would change, except one thing, I have not worried about being wounded in dormitory anymore. The Afghanistan`s dormitories or I say clear the dormitories which have located in Kabul city are the spactators of being killed or wounded of their students like 1391`s case which were happened in dormitory of Kabul university. At the same days my best friend was wounded for nothing. These reasons were enough for me, getting out.

This year I am in 14 grade, or I am in my last year. Nothing has changed, not we have new chapters, nor new teachers.

We are studying 3 historical subject: the world`s architecture history (which is telling about second sargon palace), the Islamic architecture history and the architecture`s history of Afghanistan. Namely, the condition of persons who are responsible for preparing the teaching material is acute than (noh gonbad masque in Balkh). If I say clearly the persons who are responsible for preparing materials, are (offline) or in flight mode. They have no information about world`s architecture and architecture`s world. They know the betoon gas as new discovered or new technology in the world. Disappointment.